Today something that is strangly familiar occured to me. It was not a feeling I have ever enjoyed but I feeling I have had to endure, you see, it never goes away. This feeling is cold, revealing and bitter, it holds no merit on my surroundings or my thoughts. It keeps me guessing in times of security and times of logic. My brain hurts every time this feeling reveals itself to me. Fuck, it seems as though it's here forever and I don't want it around any more. Haven't I defeated this? Haven't I run so far past this feeling that it is impossible for it to catch up? Fuck, Fuck, Fuck...I guess not.
This feeling keeps the world at a distance, keeps my thoughts forever circling, forever cycling. My world shakes at the mere mention of this feeling, this idea, this curse. My hands cannot grasp it, my heart can't outlast it, my eyes wont look past it..........But I can't put a word to it...it's just there, and it won't leave me alone
Son of a bitch, this isn't over